As I was running on my elliptical yesterday, I had a profound experience in which I literally started chuckling at my own silly thoughts running through my head. Thoughts that would normally upset me, thoughts that I would normally take seriously and thoughts that would normally lead to anxiousness.
Imagine your experience of life is like an airplane taking off, on the runway your experience is at one level; you have one experience seeing what you’re seeing on the ground floor. As you start to ascend your experience of life is another level, (higher), and you start to see things a little differently from there. Then, as you reach your final cruising altitude your experience shifts again and you see things differently from the top. From the highest level looking down everything seems so small and far away; things that used to be big and bold are now if anything, little specks in the scheme of the world.
This is how our experience of life differs day to day, moment to moment. When we are on one level of thinking those little specks are in-your-face-huge seeming like some of the biggest problems in your life at that moment. When you are on another level of thinking, you’re able to see those big problems as smaller, less significant things. Finally, when you are on a higher level of thinking, you don’t see problems at all.
You see beauty. You see wisdom. You see love. Everything you see, including those problems, you see in a different light through a different lens. You’re looking through rose coloured glasses and everything around you takes on a different quality, including the thoughts floating across your mind.
The thoughts floating across your mind are just that, thoughts. You don’t grab a hold of them, you don’t take them personally and you don’t feel them. You simply let them float. You see them for what they are without personalizing them. They simply come and they simply go.
When I was running on my elliptical yesterday, that was my experience. I had a thought float across my mind, something along the lines of wondering whether I was going to be anxious during the day and instead of feeling it then fearing it, I laughed. I laughed at how silly a thought it was.
Now I don’t always do that. Sometimes that thought crosses my mind and I do fear it, I do feel it, and that leads me to become anxious.
Obviously it feels better to laugh at the silliness than it does to feel anxiousness, but neither experience is necessarily better than the other. They are both part of being human, and they are both part of how our experience of life is created.